How much it takes one to learn?
My sixth sense did not fail me yet again.
How much does it takes a person to learn? How many falls does one needs to experience before getting back to the right track? How many chances should be given?
I've lost all hope and faith in you.
6/28/2010 11:10:00 pm
Future = unknown
It's another Saturday afternoon and I am home. So not exciting. I have cleaned up my dressing table and study table. Threw away tons of nail polishes and cosmetics. Goodness, I think I should really control my spending on cosmetics. Not that I do buy alot but some of them are simply unnecessary. Now, my room and is clean, tidy and that makes me happy!
Suppose to go out with Ah Mu Mu but seems that he has to work OT. Sigh.
Yesterday's morning rain was awesome though I was completely wet upon reaching office. I love how the wind blows and the contact of rain with the skin. It feels liberating. The wind was extremely cold and it reminds me Taiwan. I love how the sky is so dark and morbid when our usual concept of morning is bright and sunny.
Note to self: Should go clubbing soon!
Debut of Ah Mu Mu! Haha! He is damn vain and he thinks that he looks like Vanness Wu. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
Suppose to go out with Ah Mu Mu but seems that he has to work OT. Sigh.
Yesterday's morning rain was awesome though I was completely wet upon reaching office. I love how the wind blows and the contact of rain with the skin. It feels liberating. The wind was extremely cold and it reminds me Taiwan. I love how the sky is so dark and morbid when our usual concept of morning is bright and sunny.
Note to self: Should go clubbing soon!
Debut of Ah Mu Mu! Haha! He is damn vain and he thinks that he looks like Vanness Wu. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
6/26/2010 04:41:00 pm
It's Fathers Day
I just realized last night that today is Fathers Day when Ah Mu Mu asked me to go to a dinner with his uncle and family at Tung Lok to celebrate.
Of course I did not go because I am not so thick-skin although I was invited. Then again, thinking of who is going to be there made me squirm. So I stayed at home watch some tv.
Then, my mind wondered off.
When I was younger, I was the most dote upon by my dad. I resembles my dad the most. He would be the one carrying me on his shoulders. Non-stop flashbacks
My family does not have the habit of buying gifts for each other on occasions. However, on the same day, a few years back, I bought a pair of sandals for my dad because he always wore the 'japanese' slippers. I knew he liked it and was happy that I bought it for him. I remembered his smile on his face.
Nonetheless, I wish all fathers in Singapore, Happy Fathers Day!
Of course I did not go because I am not so thick-skin although I was invited. Then again, thinking of who is going to be there made me squirm. So I stayed at home watch some tv.
Then, my mind wondered off.
- What my dad is doing now?
- Where is he living?
- Is he still driving?
- Does he still gamble and drink?
- Is he earning enough?
- How is his health?
- Is he still as skinny?
When I was younger, I was the most dote upon by my dad. I resembles my dad the most. He would be the one carrying me on his shoulders. Non-stop flashbacks
My family does not have the habit of buying gifts for each other on occasions. However, on the same day, a few years back, I bought a pair of sandals for my dad because he always wore the 'japanese' slippers. I knew he liked it and was happy that I bought it for him. I remembered his smile on his face.
Nonetheless, I wish all fathers in Singapore, Happy Fathers Day!
6/20/2010 02:05:00 pm
Let's welcome the weekend with open arms.
Today is one of the rare Fridays, when I can safely tell myself, "There's nothing for you to rush, nothing for you to do. You can stay up as late as you want because tomorrow you can sleep in!"
Woohoo! How good it felt for now! If only the weather can turn cold and start raining now. I will go to sleep and hug my smelly bolster to sleep until the sun shines onto my butt!
Today has been an extremely angsty day for me. Sometimes I seriously wonder if I am being too petty, have low tolerance for unfair things, poor anger management or things always happens to make me angry? I had seriously considered go look for a shrink because I actually believed that I can't managed my emotions very well. It's either I hide them and be nice to all or I explode. 2 extreme ends. Then again, it is not like I have split personality or serious bi-polar disorder right? So, can someone tell me, is it me who care too much or is it the world who doesn't care? Damn. I think I will turn crazy soon.
There's so many things I wanna do that I can't decide which one to do first! I wanna go fly kite, prawning, ktv, Ubin cycling, tanning, bowling, volleyball, blading, fishing, crabbing, rock climbing and many many more! I wanna subscribe to Readers Digest, Discovery Channel magazine, National Geographic, Her World and I want infinite novels for me to read! So many things to do, so little money. Sigh! To think that I will be out of job very very soon!
For now, I shall turn in and start dreaming of all the above at one go.
Woohoo! How good it felt for now! If only the weather can turn cold and start raining now. I will go to sleep and hug my smelly bolster to sleep until the sun shines onto my butt!
Today has been an extremely angsty day for me. Sometimes I seriously wonder if I am being too petty, have low tolerance for unfair things, poor anger management or things always happens to make me angry? I had seriously considered go look for a shrink because I actually believed that I can't managed my emotions very well. It's either I hide them and be nice to all or I explode. 2 extreme ends. Then again, it is not like I have split personality or serious bi-polar disorder right? So, can someone tell me, is it me who care too much or is it the world who doesn't care? Damn. I think I will turn crazy soon.
There's so many things I wanna do that I can't decide which one to do first! I wanna go fly kite, prawning, ktv, Ubin cycling, tanning, bowling, volleyball, blading, fishing, crabbing, rock climbing and many many more! I wanna subscribe to Readers Digest, Discovery Channel magazine, National Geographic, Her World and I want infinite novels for me to read! So many things to do, so little money. Sigh! To think that I will be out of job very very soon!
For now, I shall turn in and start dreaming of all the above at one go.
6/19/2010 01:33:00 am
New job? Yes? No? Plus Love from Ah Mu Mu!
Today has been a mundane day. The weather became warm once again. It is no wonder that there are so many people around me falling sick, including myself.
So, the start of the day was spent at CommunicAsia and BroadcastAsia. This exhibition always brings a sense of familiarity as I see many common things that I had seen and used during my polytechnic days. Such as the radio master control, the big and bulky black camera, digital video mixing programs and etc. It simply brings me back to the poly days way a few years ago. And I do miss those times.
The second half of the day was spent in the office rushing my assignment. It is due tomorrow and no, it is not completed yet. Sigh. Now I have a problem. I am not sure what is the exact time the assignment is due. My lecturer said it is due 1159 but is it 11.59am or 11.59pm? Argh! So frustrating!
After work was to rush to Somerset for an interview. The job sounds promising and much more related to my field of studies. But I am still afraid that I will not do well. Then again, I've got to move on right?
Ah Mu Mu made porridge for me again! Today's is so much better then yesterday. Less watery, less salty, more ingredients and more yummilicious! Love it!
So, the start of the day was spent at CommunicAsia and BroadcastAsia. This exhibition always brings a sense of familiarity as I see many common things that I had seen and used during my polytechnic days. Such as the radio master control, the big and bulky black camera, digital video mixing programs and etc. It simply brings me back to the poly days way a few years ago. And I do miss those times.
The second half of the day was spent in the office rushing my assignment. It is due tomorrow and no, it is not completed yet. Sigh. Now I have a problem. I am not sure what is the exact time the assignment is due. My lecturer said it is due 1159 but is it 11.59am or 11.59pm? Argh! So frustrating!
After work was to rush to Somerset for an interview. The job sounds promising and much more related to my field of studies. But I am still afraid that I will not do well. Then again, I've got to move on right?
Ah Mu Mu made porridge for me again! Today's is so much better then yesterday. Less watery, less salty, more ingredients and more yummilicious! Love it!
6/17/2010 11:12:00 pm
New blog, new post!
It's been a long time since I spent time doodling around with blogspot. I had the sudden urge to recreate a new blog and start blogging all over again. I guess it's just human nature for need of closure and a new start. To put down what has happened in the past and start all over again. Then again, the past serve as memories which will be kept in my heart for as long as I am alive.
Life hasn't been the best for me, but I would not say it's the worst as well. As usual, I work like a cow, studied like a student should. Gradually, I grew tired of everything - work, school, life.
I have tendered my current job and is now in the midst of launching myself into my next career. 2 years, not too short, not too long. Mentally and physically, my current work sickened me. I love what I am doing, I love my colleagues. But the fact that I do not feel appreciated and recognized for all my effort, disgust me to the max. With no motivation, I do not find any reason why I should stay on my current job.
Well oh well, I guess this is part and parcel of life. Moreover I am still young and has a long way to go. Guess it is just one of those time where you just have to look for the right job. Lets pray hard that work will be smoother, less tough and more conducive.
So, today it rained the whole day and I absolutely love it. It is one of those days when I wish Ah Mu Mu can be here with me to cuddle. Oh! Ah Mu Mu cooked porridge for me as promised! Although it is a tad too salty, watery and very little ingredient, I still feel the love in this freezing weather. <3
Life hasn't been the best for me, but I would not say it's the worst as well. As usual, I work like a cow, studied like a student should. Gradually, I grew tired of everything - work, school, life.
I have tendered my current job and is now in the midst of launching myself into my next career. 2 years, not too short, not too long. Mentally and physically, my current work sickened me. I love what I am doing, I love my colleagues. But the fact that I do not feel appreciated and recognized for all my effort, disgust me to the max. With no motivation, I do not find any reason why I should stay on my current job.
Well oh well, I guess this is part and parcel of life. Moreover I am still young and has a long way to go. Guess it is just one of those time where you just have to look for the right job. Lets pray hard that work will be smoother, less tough and more conducive.
So, today it rained the whole day and I absolutely love it. It is one of those days when I wish Ah Mu Mu can be here with me to cuddle. Oh! Ah Mu Mu cooked porridge for me as promised! Although it is a tad too salty, watery and very little ingredient, I still feel the love in this freezing weather. <3
6/16/2010 03:39:00 pm